THOUGHTS OF TODAY: ONE

I have so much to say that i never want to tell anyone because I feel like no one cares. Always alone and always left with no one to talk to yet I'm always there for people when they need me. So who do i talk to? People who give advice always have their own problems and I always struggle to take my own advice. It's better hearing it from someone else. Trust them, tell them what's happening. They want to listen, I tell myself.

I know I'm not the only one who thinks like this. Everyone struggles with finding the right person to talk to and anyone who says they don't don't is lying. Either that, or they have absolutely superb friends. 

Sometimes i wonder if that's my problem. It isn't my friends fault that i can't trust them, it's mine. I clearly have some trust issues which, considering nothing significant has happened to me for me to have trust issues, is weird. Actually I lied, there has been a couple of incidents where my trust has been betrayed but I don't mind. The past is the past and, TRUST ME, those people are not worth my time. 

I do think I need to find a decent friend though, one I can tell everything to because, at the moment, the only people I feel that I can talk to are complete strangers. Therefore i need to tell myself;

Take a leap... Begin to trust.